Two years

Sleep soundly my darling boy. I hope wherever you are is beautiful. Kisses. Your Mama. X

Coming up to that time of year again

November is here, and while it doesn't feel nearly as sad or scary as last year, Bear's first anniversary, there is a heaviness around. People, friends and family, start talking about him more, which is lovely. What I mostly feel, though, is fear. Fear for the two of us, who this time two years ago had no idea about the bomb that was about to explode.

Gorgeous Pearlie is six months old

I received a lovely message asking for a picture of Pearl. Here she is in all her characterful glory. She is an amazing girl. Full of punch and laughter and she has the softest hands in the world. It's a cliche, but it's true - she's brought joy back into our lives. This little soul, who smiles all day long, has healed our hearts and helped return us to our old selves. Of course, we will never really be those old carefree people who didn't really know about grief and loss. The fact remains, that we will never get to watch Bear, our little boy, grow into the the handsome man I know he would have been. It does help though, having a new life to nuture. And Pearlie is just perfect. I hope this gives some of you some hope. I know I remember always feeling so far away from happiness. That happiness became a notion, and a state of mind, that felt as though it was denied to us. But happiness does come back. And when it returns, you appreciate every last drop of it's brilliance.

Bear's Little Sister

Our darling, precious healthy daughter Pearl Blossom Pullen arrived with a full head of hair on Valentines Day. She has shone light back into our lives.
It is a complicated notion to accept that Pearl is only here because our darling boy was snatched away. We can't imagine life without her, just as we couldn't imagine that Bear would never come home. Thankfully, our days are too filled with feeding and sleep schedules to over think the bigger picture.
She is just perfect. We are totally in love... Photos to follow.