Tuesday 24 May 2011

Quiet

I know I've been a bit quiet these past few weeks. It feels strange, but with everything that's been going on, I haven't known what to write. It's the first time since Bear's death where I've been a bit lost for words.
I will explain when I have a bit more time.
But I'm here, and I still need and love all of your support.
This weekend it will be six months since our lovely boy was born sleeping. We are having a service for him and placing his ashes in the grounds of my parents' house in Suffolk. We've chosen a beautiful tree to plant in his memory.
Despite all the bad news of recent weeks, it's Bear we keep coming back to. He should be here. Laughing at his silly parents. Not being remembered with a tree and a slate plaque.
If only, if only...

10 comments:

  1. I truly have been thinking about you and hoping things start looking up soon.

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  2. Even though I don't know you.... I've been looking to see unpdates ad hoping everything is ok.
    Glad you you updated.
    Sending you big hugs for whatever it is making you sad.

    Maria
    x

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  3. Keeping you close in my thoughts, Colette x

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  4. I promise that one day Alice, things will seem easier. Best wishes for the service.

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  5. I have had you in my thoughts and wondering if you are okay.

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  6. Dear Alice, I am so so sorry about your darling Bear. I know your pain, it's the worst pain a parent can ever feel. www.stillatbirth.com

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  7. you have all my love and support xxx

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  8. Welcome back. Was worried about you. This weekend will obviously bring another huge tsunami of emotion. And I can understand why it must feel so very unfair, even when yours is a sadness I have never known. But do try to save Bear a little smile or two, for all the amazing things that he taught you about life and about yourselves whilst you were together. old cliche but true: better to have loved and lost than never loved at all. 'Virtual stranger' hugs. Hang in there. xx

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  9. Yes, Bear should have been here :(

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  10. Dear Alice, Toby and little Bear! You are always in my thoughts and in my heart...x Martyna

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