Thursday, 24 March 2011

What does it mean when your baby dies?

It means everything is tempered with tears.
It means the sun is pale.
It means awkward silences. Even between friends.
It means daydreaming is for everyone else. So is patience. I waited, remember, and there was no gold at the end of the rainbow.
It means this upside down, inside out, crappy place called My Life, is generally a horrible town in which to be.
It means that try as I might, I can't make these posts any happier.


  1. beautiful words to describe a horror of a situation.

  2. You write so beautifully. I read a blog post by someone the other day, and when asked to find adjectives for his grief, he found several. But he believed "relentless" was the word that best described the emotions he felt since his child was born still. And so it is, there is nothing in one's life that isn't touched in some way. xxx

  3. You shouldn't feel guilty for not being upbeat on your blog. Jesus! You are going through a horrendous grieving process which is unlikely to come to an end just because other people think you should keep your chin up. Perhaps writing is your therapy? So get it all out.