The other day, I sent my story to an online community of other Mummies without their babies: www.facesofloss.com
If you click on, you'll see me there. The picture was taken the day before our wedding. It seems like a poignant choice. Actually, it was the only one saved of me on my own. I'm not too pleased about the double chins, but that is a whole other problem.
I'm not really sure why I did it.
An out-stretched hands to others, perhaps. I did not think it would generate much interest at the time, but I've had some amazing messages from others in my sad shoes and they are all so touching and I intend to reply to each on my return.
Probably, the actual reason I sent Bear's story is that this online forum is another way of me staying close to him. Talking about him in total, blissful uninterruption.
The more I write about my baby, the more he is here.
Maybe that is wrong. But I don't care.